it's coming....

yup yup...my knees are trembling and my heart is pounding...STPM results will be out this coming Thursday...25th of February...i dunno whether to panic or calm down...on one hand...i should calm down...because there is nothing i can do now...wateva is done, is done...i have done my best...n i have done everything possible...or at least almost everything...however much i frown...i will not be able to change anything...but on the other hand...i realized that this one piece of paper that i will be receiving on thursday kinda holds the key to my future...n to my dignity...n my family's honour...hmm...don't i sound like Mulan now? but neway...ya...if i could realli nail it flat...my parents will glow with joy...but if i dun...hmmm....i dunno wat will happen next...i have been talkin to HIM...the ALMIGHTY ONE...i noe i can't juz ask for wat i want...so i've asked for what i deserved...so...i'll leave my results in His hands now...

neway...chinese new year has been okee...not much stuff happening around...but thankfully...loads of ang paus...ee xin is back...so i'll have company for a while when all the kiddos are in school...sis left before cny...n i am keeping all her ang paus...hahaha...what great joy...

oh ya...i've got a new addition to my family...his name is JJ...we didn't name him after the deejay...of course not...we named him after the initials JW, JY and JC...so...he's JJ!! he is a male who sheds...n licks a lot...not forgetting his chewing habits...

INTRODUCING....
JJ the beagle pup!!!

ain't he cute?? but he can be quite a pain at times...neway...he has been my companion during the day since the past few weeks...i like him when he's asleep...very guai...

k la...tat's all...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

itu kamu....

it's been so long since i've blogged...neway...a lot of things happened recently...n frankly...this week hasn't been a great week...i hope it ends differently...

yea...being at home is quite boring...when everybody else is busy filling their time with work...it sucks even more...

decisions...ppl always say that decisions are in ur own hands...but i believe that decisions are just disguised orders...orders given by other ppl...that affects ur decision...it can never be ur own choice...it can never be ur own say...cause in every decision you make...u make it in the namesake of keeping everyone else happy...wat is happiness?? to me...it is smiling away to make other ppl happy as u suppress the fact that u are not satisfied...

neway...i like this song...tat's all...cya

two more weeks to go...

yup...i have just finished my first week of STPM...n it was...ok...i tink...neway...dun realli have much to type or talk...but i'm excited that CHRISTMAS IS NEAR!!!

ya...sometimes i get so cuckoo after studyin...i'll be singin christmas carols at my study table...thankfully...i was home alone...so no one knew i went insane...haha...neway...studyin can realli make ur mind go off at times...i kinda had short term memory loss in the pass few days...thank God the stuff i crammed to my brain din realli go missin...

neway...there's been quite a number of nice new songs...for example :
- 2 is better than 1 by 'Boys Like Girls' with Taylor Swift
- one time by Justin Bieber
- i look to you by Whitney Houston
- live like we're dying by Chris Allen

hmm...after listing them down...it doesn't seem like a big number...but neway...the song are nice...sorry ya...my taste is rather funny...i prefer slow songs...if you were to play some songs from the 70's, 80's, 90's...i would still like them...not all of them...but some of them...i realized that there are many bands during my childhood that went missing...bands like 98 degrees, 911, boyz to men, M2M, savage garden...hmm...

k la...kononnya had nth to say...i ended up typin an essay...or somethin close to an essay...cya...in 2 weeks time...at that time...i'll be FREE!!!

till then...goodbye...

upset and depressed

my day started off ok but i don't think it will end well...neway...i'm realli tired of everything...can i just leave everything behind and actually find something that i like to do? sometimes i feel like i don't even know what i want in life...i don't even know what are my visions and dreams...i just noe that i have to live up to everyone's expectation and make sure everyone's satisfied...

but am i?

i never dared to dream...cause these dreams are usually not mine...
i never dared to wish...for wishes don't usually come true...
all i do is just to follow the flow...and stick to the status quo...

more than words? nah...

i'm back from kl...neway...i haven't been touching my books for the past few days...n i have been having dreams bout my trial papers...i can practically see wat i answered on the papers in my dreams...hmm...

neway...i have been catching up on this chinese drama series..."Moonlight Resonance"...i tink...gosh...every episode made me darn emo ni...will be sobbing away at the sofa while my sis laughs her butt off seeing me so emo...

hmm...holidays have been ok so far...watched plenty of cartoons...spongebob, ben 10, tom and jerry, phineas and ferb...n my favourite...OGGY AND THE COCKROACHES....haha...it's violent...a milder version of Happy Three Friends tho...

talking bout happy three friends...my ringtone is the theme song of happy three frens..imagine when someone calls...n the annoying squeaky voice starts singing...hmmm...

k la...tat's all...

Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

the loss of a vestigial organ...

hmm...had an operation to remove my appendix earlier...making me having one organ less than an ordinary human....neway...feeling better now...oh ya...to my buddies who were concerned bout me...i juz wanna say a big 'THANK YOU'...especially to the whole big gang that came and dropped by at the ward...i'm realli thankful to have you ppl in my life...

neway...was supposed to finish my last paper today...but unfortunately or fortunately...i have no idea which...today was announced as a school holiday...and because of that...my last paper is postponed to the day after the one week holiday...thus...my holiday...ain't much of a holiday after all...darn it...

tat's all...nitez