childish games....

haha...i've been playing a lot of weird stuff lately...for example...

1. i've been stacking cards into a piramid...i'm actually good at it...haha...we kinda had some competition...i beat them all by a few minutes...haha...

the process of building the pyramid...

one of the finished masterpiece....

MY masterpiece...it looks a more stable eh?..hehe...

2. played uno stacko during BB...haha...yup...we were tat bored...haha...no la...we juz had nth to do...

we were all rather fascinated by the wobbly yet stable structure of the uno stacko...

3. have been playing with candles every day...yup...EVERY day...my little cousins have been forcing me to join them...so...i had to be a kid...but eventually...i was nagging them the whole time...they wasted so many candles...burning candles became so boring...so...i had to create a new game...i made them blow candles...haha...it was fun tho...u shud have seen how they blew...

4. have been flying kites...yup...flying kites...with who??? my cousins again...together with my aunt and also my uncle...haha...we were running around the padang like some sakais to keep the kite flying...but...sadly...the kite 'terjunam' to the ground...tat was thanks to the wind...altho it was also partially thanks to our lousy skills...ok...fine...it was my lousy skill...haha...but it was fun after all...

all these games remind me of my childhood...when we were all innocent little kids...running around...cycling at the padang...almost burning the shoe rack...playing masak-masak...playin doctor...we even played barbie dolls...hahaha...it was fun....now...i hardly play...

things weren't so complicated when we were a kid...we din have to worry bout our future...we din have to worry bout what happens tomorrow...we din have to worry about how we have to finish reading a thick book in a month's time...all we had to do was just to run around and have fun...we din care how we look...we din care wat ppl think...we held each others hands and run around...we giggle to little jokes...we cry when we are sad...we played hide and seek...yup...the old times...when life didn't seem so complicated...when life was just SIMPLE...

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hmm...haven been hearing this for some time...but it's a nice song...cause it's another westlife song...haha....

"Swear It Again"

I wanna know
Who ever told you I was letting go
Of the only joy that I have ever known
Girl, they were lying

Just look around
And all of the people that we used to know
Have just given up, they wanna let it go
But we're still trying

So you should know this love we share was never made to die
I'm glad we're on this one way street just you and I
Just you and I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

All over again

Some people say
That everything has got its place in time
Even the day must give way to the night
But I'm not buying
Cos in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
And if you see how beautiful you are to me
You'll know I'm not lying

Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
But even if we try
There are some things in this life won't be denied
Won't be denied

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and
your pain
And I swear it all over again

The more I know of you is the more I know I love you
And the more that I'm sure I want you forever and ever more
And the more that you love me, the more that I know
Oh that I'm never gonna let you go
Gotta let you know that I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
(I'm never gonna say goodbye)
Cos I never wanna see you cry
(never wanna see you cry)
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
(swear it all over again and I)
I'm never gonna treat you bad
(never gonna treat you bad)
Cos I never wanna see you sad
(never wanna see you sad)
I swore to share your joy and your pain
(oh no, oh no)
And I swear it all over again


All over again
All over again
And I swear it all over again

back on my feet....

haha...yeah...i'm back to normal...wound healing...things have been goin on just fine....

have been goin out with kim for lunch on wednesdays...haha...yeah...get to spend some time with her la...it's fun ler...catch up with her life...she belanja me n i belanja her...haha...n eventually, i became her driver...she realli like to comment on my driving...haihz...but nvm...at least we are alive...haha...neway, thanks kiddy for alwiz being thr...

yeah....results slip is out...was satisfied with my results...hehe...i got first place in class...haha...tat realli made my day ler...but still...i shudn't get too comfortable...i'll have to work even harder to maintain at that spot...i hope i can do it...teachers are realli goin fast...n i haven been revising...sigh...

neway, have been going for family reunions...cousin came back from Singapore...he's cool la...changed a little...but overall...he's still the same...

hmmm...i wanna watch movie ler...but everybody is busy with their own stuff...nvm...i shall wait till a very good movie is out...

k la...nth much to say d...brain shuttin down...

another shattering blow....

i dunno wat luck i've been facing these few months...first it was the a2 in my results...

next was not having any scholarships...

and now, this...y can't i have at least one of the things i want...i tried...to be myself...to do my best...to aim for it...but it all just slipped away...just like that...i knew it was gonna happen...i prepared myself for the blow...i strengthen my heart...protected my soul...but then...it still cuts thru...it penetrated so deep...it felt like a knife piercing thru ur heart...leaving yet another scar...sigh...now all i can do...is juz to let it heal...again...

neway...my list of things have been completed...but eventually...i realize that ppl never see the good things you do...all they see are the flaws...the little little flaws hidden between each and every word...can't they understand tat i did everything...i sleep at 3 every night...for 2 weeks to finish it...yet...all they can see are the flaws...nvm...i shall live with it...

sigh...k la...nth much to say d...

burnt, paralysed and handicapped...

yeah...ltc is over...whole body achin...can hardly move around...walkin up and down the stairs is like climbing Bukit Kledang...haha...ok...maybe it's not tat bad...but it hurts...

neway...was doing my newsletter thing...i dunno y i'm taking the burden all to myself and not delegating it...i could make my life easier...a lot more easier...hmmm...maybe it's just me...dun realli have the trust to delegate the work...delegate or dun delegate...i still have to finish that newsletter...

my sister has left back to Moscow...kiddy is in Negeri Sembilan...sigh...everybody is far far away from me...missin them badly...

yeah...most of my frens are back from college for their hols...sadly...my schedule is so packed...can hardly find time to spend with them...and my homework is piling up...haihz...wat a holiday...lonely and busy...

neway...will be going for this literacy program tomorrow...have to tutor little kids...so...i've got to wake up early tomorrow...or is it today...wateva la...

oh ya...i bought myself a new purse for a very reasonable price...will show u ppl another day...

k la...me wanna tidur...still lacking of sleep thanks to LTC...

njttjo zpv...

drained...

yeah...my energy is seriously drained out of me...have been sleeping at 2 sumthin for the past few days...a hectic hectic week...sigh...stayin back till 5 everyday...plannin the stuff out...skipping lunch...i tink i'll seriously drop dead during LTC....

oh ya, LTC is tomorrow...actually, i'm not even looking forward for it...sigh...saddening...thrs juz so much crap to do...newsletter is also another problem that is making me lose another inch of my mind every minute...

neway, took some time off today and went and watch wall-e with my sisters and cousins...it was a good movie...realli inspiring...makes you see what will happen in the future if humans do not start to conserve mother nature...the storyline is also quite touching...altho it is just 2 robots...and the word capacity is so limited between the robots...but the love story is clear...it shows that behind every metallic exterior, there'll always be a place for love inside...the robots are cute...real cute...will talk more about this later...

feeling realli hungry now ler...sob...yeah...the week ahead will still be another hectic week...after LTC, got to go to Penang cause sis leaving back to Russia d...stayin in Penang for a week...next day, have to go for the literacy program...tutor standard 3 kids...after tat, GBP's LTC...not forgetting the newsletter...d

oh ya, my laugh have been stolen by the guys...sob...they stole my laugh...they stripped my laugh away...now i don't find the originality in my laugh anymore...my trademark has been taken...n it's spreading...they will juz start laughin at my face for no reason...haihz...

yeah...that's all for now...gtg continue my stuff...

my brain hurts...

juz finished my monthly paper...got back my maths paper...not bad la...but could actually do betta if i was careful enough...haihz...dumb me...

neway...havin a headache...have been studying for the past few days...i thought it'll be fun when test ends...but it's worse...now i'll have to finish and complete all my tasks...i was trying to download some fonts...but eventually...i didn't know how to use them...was trying over and over again...till i was so frustrated...haihz...

my group has been really testing my patience...n my family members ain't making it any easier...i think i'm gonna explode one day...my patience and stress is already compiled up to an unimaginable level...whoever who wants to trigger my anger...you are realli askin for trouble...

i seriously nid an outing...or time out...or anything...to calm myself down...realli feel like screaming at someone...was so close to screaming at my sister's face...but tahan...tahan...and guess wat...the more i tahan...the more my chest hurts...sigh...wateva la...have to survive...

i nid my laughing sessions and theraphies badly...and most of all...i nid a hug...a hug tat i'm deprived of for a long long time...sob...

ok...gtg watch my chinese drama series...