holy me...

after ages not goin to church...i went to church today...yeah...felt a little akward at first...haven been singin for a long long time...haven been commited to God...yeah...i feel a like a jerk at times...but there are reasons y i dun wanna go to church...i dun realli like the ppl thr...tat's my own opinion la...but overall...i still love God and believe in His powers...i've no idea wat kind of christian i actually am...

neway...i went and watch 'The Forbidden Kingdom' in jusco yesterday with my family...it was a good show ler...the fightin scene was nice...yeah...i have alwiz been a fan of jet li and jackie chan movies...neway...when you have 2 good kung fu actors in the same movie...it'll definately be good...it's actually an english movie...a little chinese words here and there...the main actor is some guy...from sky high...his name is michael angarano...he is ok la...not very cute looking...but still...bearable for the eyes...

jackie chan

jet li

michael angarano...wat a complicated name

neway...have been rottin lately...borin ler...nth to do...life seems to be borin when you have no school...haha...neway...was realli moody this mornin...but thankfully...i have kiddy...yeah...she alwiz have her ways to dig out the joy in me...so now...i'm back to normal...so...thank you once again...you are a blessin in diguise...hehe...

neway...gonna find somethin to do...so...cya...

*yawn*

i woke up at 7 sumthin today...followed my parents for jogging...my sister went to school...so...i had the 'only child' experience for a few hours...so...we walked...n walked...n walked...saw many ppl dancing...senamrobik, line dancing and many more la...i was rather suprised tho...to see so many ppl up and awake to exercise on a weekend...you can see people from all age and races dancing together...yeah...ppl from all walks of life...it was a sight to behold...the harmony n unity among us malaysians...i tot it was slowly fading...but eventually...these values still exist among us...

neway...have been listening to hitz fm...instead of my usual mix fm...haha...heard this song from mariah carey's latest album...

"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

this song is more for those who had lost someone special and close...yeah...till now...i haven experience losing anyone close...n i dun want to experience tat feelin anytime soon...i'm glad they are all by my side...

i realized tat i haven been really appreciatin the ppl around me...tat's wat usually happen to us, humans...we dun realize how important and how much someone means to us until tat special someone leaves our lifes...so...appreciate the ppl around us...tell them how much you love them...and how much they mean to you...before it's too late...you'll never noe when will someone leave you...so...all you have is today...and the days to come...

thanks kiddy for everything...

kjf mpwft zpv...bmxja ibwf...o bmxja zjmm....

rottin...

ello...have been goin back to school everyday...due to boredom that strikes at home...yeah...help out...'misuse' the computers...haha...actually...i'm allowed to...act dumb...listen to gossips...kacau ppl...esp kiddy...hahaha...played more pathetic games...haha...feel like a kid...yeah...when i go home...i'll lay around...n when it's 6pm d...i'm turn on my tele and watch CSI-NY...hahaha...i watched some of the episodes more than twice...but eventually...i dun get bored...haha...then...i watch BEN 10...haha...on cartoon network...the theme song is cute...haha...never realli watch BEN 10 till kiddy introduced to me...haha


neway...watched disney channel after tat...i noe i sound pathetic...watchin all these kid's cartoon at such an age...but...i'm still young...ain't i?? haha...i muz seriously watch as much as i can before my hectic life starts again...hehehe...neway...back to disney channel...i watched this music clip...by Jonas Brothers...the song is nice...in the sense of tune and melody...the lyrics is also rather meaningful...

When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To become a better man?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

Every day, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

jonas brothers

hehehe...neway...i'll be goin for....STARWALK...hahaha...with my 'superb' stamina...i believe tat...*whispers* i'll juz pengsan half way...*cough* hahaha...neway...no worries...i have my faithful kiddy and loyal sei mun goin with me...so....if anythin happens to me...hehehe...i believe tat my kiddy and sei mun is kind enuf to carry me to the finish line...hahaha...juz jokin...if you ppl had to carry me...i tink we all pengsan together...then we'll have to find a lorry to carry us to the finish line...hehe

kjf mpwft zpv...

2 days in penang...

haha...i went to penang for 2 days...my dad brought his colleage from US along...so...yeah...we brought him around penang...went to the dam and see water...

the dam...

the trees around the dam...

went to the botanical garden and see monkeys...ate curry fish head for lunch...then...we went to sum batik place...saw how they made batik...

some of the designs...

we checked into our hotel...we stayed at Paradise Sand Hotel...or smth like tat...dun remember the name ler...yeah...rented a suite...the price is rather reasonable tho...

the living room...

haha...went swimmin in the evening...but eventually...it was more of floatin...so many ppl ler...not fun...then...we washed ourselves n went for dinner at The Ship...yeah...i ate fish and chips...so big plate ler...n i wonder y i'm gaining weight...haha...went for a stroll down the road...saw the night market...saw the clothes...then went back to the hotel...n watched House...hehe...eventually...everybody was asleep except me...i fell asleep in front of the tele till 1 am...haha...sorry ya, kiddy...i tertidur...haha...neway...wanted to sleep on the bed...then i realized how much my sister occupied the single bed....so...i slept on the couch...sleep until whole body ache...

my couch for the night...with teddy...

next day...woke up at 7 sumthin...bathed...look at some view out the balcony...

from the balcony:

from the beach:

n went down for buffet breakfast...ate quite a lot...but less than the amount i could gobble up last time...packed our stuff...and travelled down to the Butterfly Farm...haha...saw a lot of butterflies...stupid phrase...haha...go butterfly farm sure see a lot of butterflies wan la...haha...walked around the place...not bad...

pretty pretty buterflies...

after tat..i was whining due to thirst and hunger...so...went out and buy a drink...then my dad saw durians...he bought 1 juz for his fren to eat...but the guy juz tasted a little and threw it away...a pig like mua on the other hand...ate 3...not 3 durians la...juz 3 'ulas'...is it ulas?? i dun remember d...wateva la...yeah...i went to penang to eat durian...geng rite? oh ya...sei mun, the durians were yummy...hahaha

then we go to Gurney Plaza...ate Nando's for lunch...then me n my mum ordered 1/2 a chicken to share...with Hot Peri Peri flavour...haha...when the chicken came...it had a flag on it tat states...

"Hot"

"Gets You In The Mood"
hmmm...doesn't it sound a little...urm...wrong??

the poor piece of chicken tat i salvaged...n left it labelled as hot...
see...i respect the poor chicken by giving it it's dignity...haha

neway...after eatin...we walked a little...bought myself a t-shirt from body glove's cheap sale...it looks sumthin like this...bought it for RM20...hehe...original price is RM69.90 ler...

part of the design...

hehehe...then walked around...went huntin for pressies for my cousins...was supposed to find a present for an april cousin...but we bought for the may cousins instead...bought some squishy toys for them...one of the is the 'tung ku' (mushroom)...so cute...

the cute squishy 'tung ku'

after tat...we went home d...now...i'm havin a little headache...n muscle pain...i dunno y...

tat's all for the day...

tired..

have been very tired lately...dunno why also...neway...yeah...wat have i done for the past few days...i went for driving on tuesday...haha...but eventually, i drove for onli half an hour...i am still not allowed to drive coz i haven get my L-license...so...durin tat half an hour...i was thought how to handle the steering wheel and how to turn...in the sense of turning right and left...yeah...i also has to learn how to stop the car at the 'BERHENTI' sign...and the thing is...whenever i wanted to continue my journey...my engine will usually die off...thanks to the clutch and oil pedal part...have to realli master tat when my lesson begins...yeah...

on the other days...i practically went to school...helped out...haha...today i had sei mun as assistant...then mun teng joined in as well...i believe they are interested to help out too...hehehe...

then went for chem tuition...keep fallin asleep in the first 1 and a half hour...was practically listening to the sir with eyes closed...whenever i try to strain my eyes...my head will juz start "fishing"(the act where ur head starts to fall without you realizin it and then all of a sudden, you'll juz jerk up realizin tat you were fallin asleep) yeah...i was doin tat in the first hour...even sweets can't help me...luckily noone noticed...i tink the sir saw tho...it was rather noticable from the front...poor me...eventually...i survived the 3 hours...wasn't so sleepy when he started giving us calculation problems to solve...actually...i believe tat 3 hours of continuous tuition kills...i'd rather go for 2 days...usually, my maximum time length for tuition is only 2 hours...n to survive tat 2 hours can also be a pain sumtimes...but wat to do...tuition is tuition..i'll have to survive...

ok now...juz to have some leisure time...

















ain't they juz adorable??? haha...k la...not feelin so well...cya

a not so boring weekend...

woke up n ate my breakfast...then watched 'grease' the movie...haha...mum insisted on buying the dvd for me to watch...so i watched...then we had lunch...din eat much...onli ate bread n egg...coz i had a heavy breakfast...yeah...read my book after lunch...then fell asleep...but eventually...could't sleep so well...the weather was so hot ler...so...i got up...n continued the television marathon...watched half of 'casino royale' followed by 'eight below'...eight below was a rather touchin movie...was practically sobbing on the coach...haha...i noe it sounds pathetic...but i have this weak point...i cry very easily when i see anythin touching tat moved my heart...yeah...

so...if you wanna see me cry...juz get any sad movie...n sit by my side when i'm watchin...you'll realli see me sob...

neway...back to the movie...'eight below'...it's about 8 dogs left alone at the antartic(i think) for 200++ days...yeah...it showed how the dogs work together to find food n how they obeyed the leader...the dogs also stayed by the side of another injured dog...eventually...2 died...by the way...the dogs are huskies...hehe...so cute...

the movie

the husky

random husky pic

after tat, i watched 'over the hedge'...haha...funny...i like the squirrel...named hammy...haha...among all the animals...hammy did the cutest actions...i also liked the 3 baby porcupines...haha...the movie is actually about these animals tryin to get across the hedge to get more food...n they started stealin all the food...eventually...RJ the racoon was just using them to save himself from the bear...

the movie

hammy

porcupines

neway...i went for a movie n lunch with sei mun n kim yesterday...we ate at sushi and watched nim's island...neway...it was rather a waste of money...the storyline is boring n the entire movie revolves around a girl, her father and their island together with a writer...regretted watchin tat...paid rm9 ler...we watched it because we were desperate for a movie...haha...nvm...thrs alwiz another day...

chilled...

yeah...was rather frustrated yesterday...din wan to update for a while...but eventually...cannot resist the temptation to type a whole page of crap...haha...but this time...i'll try to make it short n simple...

neway, wanna share 1 of my interestin experience...yeah...remember my 36 hours program in the hospital?? yeah...i went for 12 hours ni eventually...haha...neway...it was realli cool...i went at 8 am...started with rounds in wards...walked up the stairs again...yeah...saw all the ppl with their head half bandaged...then i went to the ICU...yeah...not bad la...rather impressed...they hv all the cool gadgets n equipments...the door actually slides open automatically instead of pushin it manually like all the typical doors in the hospital...

ok...movin on to the best part...i was called by my doctor to be at the operation theatre...hehe...i rushed thr...typed the secret code to enter...n got changed to the surgical attire...together with the cap n mask...haha...then it was surgery time...my doctor is a neurosurgeon...so...i got to see neurosurgery...hehe...yup...i saw doctors openin ppl's skull...hehe...the first patient was a lady...who i think is in a coma stage...she din even react when the doctors checked on her...neway...yeah...i watched the operation...how her hair was shaved off...then her skin was cut open n flapped on top of her face...the entire skin on the head was totally coverin her eyes...hehe...yeah...n the best part was when blood starts gushin out like a fountain...wee...n guess wat the doctors to do to stop the bleed?? they juz burn the hole to prevent more blood lost...then they start drillin into the skull...n guess wat?? they dun place back the skull after the operation...haha...they juz pull back the skin n sew...yup...n i saw 2 of those operations...fun eh??

ok...movin on...i have an announcement...

i have PASSED my undang test

so...i can now start the first step of driving...haha...be prepared ppl...i'll be on the road soon...
yeah...i have been goin to school lately...help out in the library...quite fun tho...i like doin all these work...i dunno y...somehow i feel happy helpin ppl...n i get to check on kiddy...haha...

neway...went for a walk around school with ee xin today...yeah...i went n dig stuff...it has been a long time since we chatted...i practically grew up with her...so...we might seem close...we once shared toys...n we once fight for toys...we even sat on swings together...yup...tat was old times...imagine me sharing the swing with her at this age...when i said swing...i meant the kids kind of swing...gosh...it will look so pathetic...n we'll probably get fined for vandalisin public property...n ppl like me don't vandalize stuff...not like sum ppl...i wonder who eh??


it's been a long time since i had fun like this...times when everybody was naive n innocent...haha...times when we were all kids...all we did was play...no worries...no stress...yeah...don't you miss them too??

kjf mpwft zpv. ublf dbsf bi...nvbyyy

stupid blog...

i typed quite a long post n placed my heart in it...n it all disappeared in a second...d**n you...stupid blog...aargh....dun wan type d...happened so many times...realli d**n it

more hectic...

gosh...i have just received a phone call from khazanah...yeah...i applied a scholarship there...i applied for actuarial science...n the interview will be held on the 9th of april(wed)...in the afternoon...in kl...so... i wud have to travel...

the thing is...i'll be goin for this 36 hours program in the hospital...this program is to train us for housemanship when we finished our 7 years of studies...n this program is held on the 8th of april(tues)...it starts at 8am on tues and ends on 5pm on wed...so..i cud onli go for 24 hours...i'm feelin so bad for ditchin hasvaany for the next 12 hours...

n the next thing is...i have to take my undang test the next day...i haven studied a thing...i believe i have to start studyin today...

neway, back to updates...

2nd april - preparation for the jpa interview
not much...just read...read...research...asked...read summore...brainstormed topics...yeah

3rd april - preparation and tuition
again, brainstormed more topics...read...n asked another fren...then, i went for my chem tui later in the afternoon...was supposed to go to mr chin's tuition...but, classes haven start yet...so, i joined sei mun n mun teng...went to mr chua's chem tui at omega tuition centre...n i've never seen a tuition centre like tat...y did i say so???

1st - i have to give my passport pictures => for student id
2nd - i have to fill in all my particulars...including my parents name n occupation
3rd - i have to sign a paper sayin that i will obey all their rules...
4th - i paid rm68 (rm40 for one month and rm 28 for registration and the books that i'll receive the entire year)
5th - i received a test pad with the tuition centre's name
6th - the classes have computers and projectors
7th - if i pay my monthly fees early with the presence of my student id, i'll get discount...i tot it wud be rm10 or rm15 discount...but to my utter disappointment...it is onli rm2...so...by bringin my card while payin..i get rm 2 discount
8th - before class ends, we were given paper..tat little piece of paper was for us to write the no of candies n a box...we have to guess...n if you win, i believe you will be given some sort of prize...

therefore...i have brought up my conclusion n i told my frens tat....

omega tuition centre = a shoppin mall

4th april - interview day
yeah...was practically freakin out the entire morning...woke up...ate...n wore my newly bought baju kurung...interview was at 10 am...so, i went at 9...reached at 9 sumthin...went n looked for my panel...found it...waited for the earlier session to end...while waitin...we had to give our documents to some officers to check...yeah..it was my turn to give my documents....n the lady officer said "wah, hari ini sangat cantik.." i was like wonderin y she said so...it's not like i've been seeing her everyday...neway...i said thank you in an awkward manner...

10 o'clock came...we were given no tags to wear...then we brought in to the room...yes...it is we...i entered in a group of 7...n guess wat no i got?? i was no 4...gosh....dahla tat day was 'qing ming' day...i had to receive tat number...neway, i went in...yeah...our interviewers was 2 malay ladies...rather young...they looked nice...

then interview started...we were required to introduced ourselves in bm...then, it was discussion...the topic was..."do you agree tat the home plays a more influencial role than the school in cultivating good values in a child?" n most of us agreed...then, the discussion changed to bm...the interviews said that "jikalau ibu bapa adalah bertanggungjawab terhadap anak-anaknya...perlukah kerajaan mengenakan hukuman terhadap mereka? " n everybody said no...except ME...so, i had to defend myself thruout the entire discussion...pity me...

after tat, i went out with hsin n gang...not much to talk about...felt so left out...yeah...din realli feel comfortable...they asked me to go for the next movie...but i rejected them...i chose to follow my parents out for dinner...neway, it was a good choice...i ate yummy yummy food...hehe...

today - weekend
i did nth much...woke up...ate...watched tv...laid around...look at the argosy...found a potential lookin junior of mine...haha...KIM...yeah...i believe she can do great things...saw her name with the number of medals she has...saw her pic...in achievements n societies...yup...got potential...haha...then, received the khazanah phone call...n now, here i am...onlinin


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life...

okee dokee now...updates for the past few days...

27th march - 4th day of exposure

went to the mortuary...saw 2 dead bodies...pitiful tho...they had no identity when they were found...cause they didn't bring their ic...so...their relatives aren't informed...the smell was...undescribable...if you wanna noe...go experience it urself...

28th march - last day of exposure and 'grease'

yeah...last day in the hospital...din do much tho...just heard a forensic talk...and then went back home...yeah...later that night...i went n watched 'grease' with kim, sei mun n my younger sis...ok la...not bad...before that, we had dinner with kim's parents...aku disoal siasat...haha...luckily i'm not a guy...haha...if not it'll be like some test...yeah...ate before the play...after the play...ate again...ate supper...yup...was introduced to a big bowl of ice and fruits...cold...yet yummy...my whole mouth felt numb after eatin...haha...even my tongue...after that, went to sei mun's house with kim...we had a sleepover...hehe...fun...din realli sleep...was practically buggin each other...haha....talked and giggled...played cards...imagine 3 girls in a bed...hahaha....kim...dun think horny stuff ah...hahaha...but all in all...a great experience...1st sleepover...it was seriously onil sleepover...hardly spend much time in the mornin playin...or the night before...we onli slept...haha...

29th march - mgs sports day

woke up early...thanks to kim...haha...sent kim to school...we also went to school...hehe...then it started...saw little kim marchin...hahaha...an unforgettable sight...farny...then....saw all the maskots...interestin maskots...crabs?? turtles?? pirates?? fighters?? hmmm....they shud hv themes next year...let's say bugs...cavell - ladybug, crosby - beetle, nightingale - some yellow bug, victoria - grasshopper...then we'll have a buggy sports day...hehehe...neway, sports ended...went home...n rested...msged kiddy...she was on the way to johor...thinkin bout horny stuff...haha

30th march - ching ming (i've no idea how to spell it)

it's the day whr you visit ur ancestors grave...clean it up...gv some offerin...yeah...i went with my dad...had to wake up at 5 am...yawn...slept the entire journey...picked up my aunt...then reached the first grave...had to walk a long way in...walk walk walk..thankfully, the sun wasn't that glarin and sunny...time for 2nd grave...the sun was killin...dad made me hold the umbrella the entire time...yeah...i was the shade provider...whoever who stands by me shall be given shade...haha...later, went to taipin for lunch...n then straight home...

31st march - certifyin day

went to school...brought my entire stack of certs to be certified...yeah...then went n helped the debaters...crapped with them...argued...discussed...went home...ate lunch...then it was tuition time...yeah...had a lot of new students...then sir went n talk a little crap...once again announcin tat i am his 'grandstudent'...then he start estimatin whether he will be able to teach my kid...gosh..started sayin if i married early...at the age of 25...n then he started calculatin...n he came to a conclusion sayin that he will be bones by that time...yeah...

1st april - april's fool day

went to school to help out the debaters...talked more...argued more...me so cham...had to face 3 speakers at 1 time...sob...me alone...yeah...then go see little kiddy...notti fella...then saw kidyd's face on the board...she realli makes me damn proud ler...haha...yeah...a great girl with great potential...she just need to have some faith...i do have faith in her...she just has to have some in herself...yeah...took my jpa online test thingy...n now i'm here...haha

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