upset and depressed

my day started off ok but i don't think it will end well...neway...i'm realli tired of everything...can i just leave everything behind and actually find something that i like to do? sometimes i feel like i don't even know what i want in life...i don't even know what are my visions and dreams...i just noe that i have to live up to everyone's expectation and make sure everyone's satisfied...

but am i?

i never dared to dream...cause these dreams are usually not mine...
i never dared to wish...for wishes don't usually come true...
all i do is just to follow the flow...and stick to the status quo...

more than words? nah...

i'm back from kl...neway...i haven't been touching my books for the past few days...n i have been having dreams bout my trial papers...i can practically see wat i answered on the papers in my dreams...hmm...

neway...i have been catching up on this chinese drama series..."Moonlight Resonance"...i tink...gosh...every episode made me darn emo ni...will be sobbing away at the sofa while my sis laughs her butt off seeing me so emo...

hmm...holidays have been ok so far...watched plenty of cartoons...spongebob, ben 10, tom and jerry, phineas and ferb...n my favourite...OGGY AND THE COCKROACHES....haha...it's violent...a milder version of Happy Three Friends tho...

talking bout happy three friends...my ringtone is the theme song of happy three frens..imagine when someone calls...n the annoying squeaky voice starts singing...hmmm...

k la...tat's all...

Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably, And never regret anything that made you smile.

the loss of a vestigial organ...

hmm...had an operation to remove my appendix earlier...making me having one organ less than an ordinary human....neway...feeling better now...oh ya...to my buddies who were concerned bout me...i juz wanna say a big 'THANK YOU'...especially to the whole big gang that came and dropped by at the ward...i'm realli thankful to have you ppl in my life...

neway...was supposed to finish my last paper today...but unfortunately or fortunately...i have no idea which...today was announced as a school holiday...and because of that...my last paper is postponed to the day after the one week holiday...thus...my holiday...ain't much of a holiday after all...darn it...

tat's all...nitez

a tragic incident...

on the 29th of July 2009, the prefectorial board of SMK ACS Ipoh lost one of the good prefects...he was involved in a road accident....a tragic accident that took his life away...nobody expected it to happen...nobody expected him to leave...we all thought he would pull it through...it all happened too fast...n the sad thing is...he was or is only 17 years old...he did not even get a chance to sit for his SPM paper...we were all juz jokin and playin together days before tat...neway...he was a good guy...a cheerful guy...a 'happy-go-lucky' boy...the loss of him was a loss of a good prefect...a good companion...a good guy...and mostly...we've all lost a good friend...

to tevindiran...

i noe you are up thr looking down on all of us...i could see the amount of pain you had to go thru before leaving us by the scars on ur face...but i could also see the peace you had on ur face when u lied thr...i believe u are now at a better place...a place whr you'll be free of pain...the fact that you left us so soon still left us dumbfounded...but it also made us grew stronger and realize that life is short...ur lost has brought us together...neway...i have always admired how you never spent a day frowning...how you would plant little seeds of joy in our hearts...n how you would juz joke around the school...the space you left behind can never be replaced...take good care of yourself k...we'll miss you...

Tevindiran s/o Subramaniam

You'll always be remembered....
May you rest in peace...

"Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, Today is a gift...
that's why it is called the 'PRESENT' "

so...enjoy today for it is God's gift for us, and make the best out of it,
because a day without a smile is a wasted day.

studies....happiness...n lambs??

haha...once again...after so long...i'm back...neway...holidays have just begun...n i'm kinda dying of boredom d...

exams was ok...got back most of the results d...i think it is ok...but i believe it can be improved...neway...i have been reflecting on a few questions after exams...hmm...firstly...how important is education in one's life?? i have always prioritized my studies...till i forget to see the things happening around me...there were so many things that i could have appreciated more in the past...looking back..i realized that my life was kinda pathetic...i was usually depressed bout my results...then after steppin into f6...i started lookin around at the ppl around me...i realize how some of my frens can still smile and laugh their heads off eventhough they failed their paper...i can't imagine wat wud happen to me if i ever failed my paper...it made me realized...in life...happiness does not onli revolve around gettin good results...there are other stuff in life can actually make u smile...n to think bout it...not all successful ppl are educated...u dun nid a hundred n one degree to be successful...all u nid is juz faith, hope and the strength to pick urself up after every fall...i'm not saying that studies are unimportant...but sometimes...thr is more to life than a string of As...hmmm....i can't believe i'm saying this....haha

ok...the next question i reflected on...who are the happiest ppl on earth? the richest? the most successful? i kinda discussed it with my frens...haha...yea...one said that happiness is not measurable...it depends on how each individual thinks bout happiness...it also depends on how one wants to be happy...u can be in the deepest pile of crappy problems but still smile your way thru it...or u can be in the biggest pile of wealth but still feel miserable about life...hmmm...it's all self induced...but eventually...we came to this random conclusion that children are sometimes the happiest ppl on earth...they hardly have anything to worry about...one minute, they might be mad at u for something...n the next minute...they will be stickin to u for company...they don't even noe wat an A is about...

neway...talkin bout kids...haha...my cousin bro is darn cute...he was singin 'mary had a little lamb'...n the funny thing is...he onli noes one line...so he sings the whole song with tat one particular phrase...after singin,

cousin bro : wat is a lamb?
me : a sheep
cousin bro : wat is a sheep?
me : urm...a goat
cousin bro : wat is a goat?
me : ah...*doin the mengembek sound* u noe not?
cousin bro : oooh....cow ah??
me : hmmm...no...cow's cousin...
cousin bro : aaah...horse??
me : nono...horse's fren...
cousin bro : ok...now i noe wat a lamb is...

so...does he noe wat a lamb is?? i guess not...haha

neway...tat's all...

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away..."

it's done....

canteen day is finally over...n it was quite a success...not forgettin how we look awesome in our new red t-shirt...hehe...neway...my whole body is achin thanks to canteen day...but anyhow...it was worth it...things went on quite smoothly...

the front

the back

neway....heard this song by neyo....the song is nice...the lyrics are interesting...but the music video is betta...u shud realli watch it...

MAD

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting
So both of us are mad for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothin', crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won't let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know so tops it gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

And it gets me upset
Girl when you're constantly accusing
Askin' questions like you already know
We're fighting this war
Baby when both of us are losing
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?
We've fall into this place
Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down
So what the hell do we do now?
It's all for

Nothing, fighting for
Nothing, crying for
Nothing, whoa
But we won't let it go for

Nothing, no not for
Nothing, this should be
Nothing to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at m
Oh no no no

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
Perfect, perfect, oh oh
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
Long as everything's all right between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

you shud realli watch the video...neway...that's all...

H.A.C.K.S