so close...but never too far??

was watching ENCHANTED on star movies...haha...n once again...i fell for the song...it's a nice song ler...

"SO CLOSE"

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

haha....neway....went back to hometown...yea...was sittin there...watching some hokkien karaoke show...nearly died of boredom...i was pratically staring at the chinese words tryin to understand...n surprisingly...i could understand a few here and there...i'm not a hokkien...but grandparents like to watch hokkien shows...so...we have to join them...neway, i ate seafood...haha...yum yum....yea...seafood there is cheap...not that cheap...but cheaper than town...cause it's a fishing village...so...i fed myself...n made myself a step closer in becoming a pig...haha...

oh ya...i saw sumthin very gross...ok...not gross...but juz an eye sore...haha...yea...my dad was driving...and some mat rempits came speeding by...n there was this big guy on the bike...as they were speeding...their clothes were flyin...and this big guy...he's shirt was exceptionally big...due to his humongous waistline...so...the shirt was flying and flapping at full blast...and the gross thing is...his pants were slippin...n i believe his underwear too...so...we could see the valley...so grosssss....nearly puked my entire dinner out...hahaha....

neway...i tested my driving skills in the afternoon...i took my aunt's manual car and started driving...and i actually remembered how to handle a manual gear...i was so worried the engine might just die at the traffic light...haha...but with my skills...i didn't...if it did...tat'll be very embarassing....haha...but auto is definately a lot easier than manual...thank God for the creation of auto gears...

yeah...tat's all...

j mpwf zpv...

Is this me??

"This is me"

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I had this dream
Bright inside of me
I'm going to let it show
It's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's to far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Hmm...have been listening to this song...the lyrics are interesting...and it made me think...again...all this while...am i even me?? have i found who i am? or am i just a programmed robot? is thr even a voice in my head? whr am i supposed to be?? do i want to do wat i'm doin now? wat is my dream? n wat is my future?? do i realli wan to choose the medical field??

guess wat....i seriously have no answers to those questions...i seriously don't know...darn...life was suppose to be simple...it seemed to be simple...it was believed to be simple...ppl say that life was made simple..it is individuals who made it complicated...but to me...life is complicated...n humans made it more twisted and messed up...and i am like a 5 year old kid...trying to find my way through this complicated life and trying to stay alive...

hmmm...hv been reflecting a lot...what if i die tomorrow....have i realli enjoyed my life in the past 17 years? did i make the best of my life? i wonder...neway...i dunno what lies ahead of me...i realli wanna make the best of my life....but i dunno whether i can do it....i noe it all lies in my hands...but my hands juz dun seem to budge...i am still afraid...afraid of something...something that held me back all this while...

hmmmmm.....

i wan to be a kid again....life wudn't be so complicated...

cookies and cupcakes...

yeah....these are the pictures of the cookies and biscuits my friends and i baked...they look yummy...rite?? haha...


hmm...might be baking sometime this week...was tempted to bake a cake...neway...have been exercising...haha...yeah...have been swimming...playing badminton...playing ping pong...but eventually...after sweating a bucket full...i was stuffed with food again...so my energy used was wasted...haha....but the good thing is...my badminton skills are a little betta...haha...for someone who never knew how to play badminton until she was 14(or around that age)...my ping pong balls are faster...but have to work on some areas...like pushing...n dad keeps smashin the balls...i dun like it when he smash ping pong balls...you can hardly see the ball....

hmmm...have been listening to some songs on the radio...n i'm getting kiddy's disease...haha...the keep-changin-radio-channel disease...haha...somehow...it does get annoyin when u hear more talkin than songs....so i'll be flicking the channels while i'm driving...from hitz to fly to mix than back to hitz...haha....oh ya....david cook's new song ain't tat nice...

pretty pic...

holidays.....

yeah....the first monday of the holidays...went and watch bond today...it's ok onli la...so much fight scenes...every scene someone dies...then blast here....shoot there....hit this...bang that...yea...it's FILLED with fighting scenes...

neway...was trying to be a good samaritan yesterday...my family and i was on a mission to save a puppy from the monsoon drain located behind my house...cause it was raining...and we were worried it will get swept away by the rising water...so...with an excited spirit to save the puppy...i jumped into the drain...ok...fine...i din jump into the drain...i climbed into the drain...so...i was walking towards the puppy...and for the first time...i realize how slippery algae can be...i was juz walking on the wet ground...thinkin tat i wun slip cause i wasn't running...but i was wrong...after walkin for 2 metres...i almost slipped...but i succeded to stay on my feet due to my good balancing skills...haha...

so...i cautiously continued my mission to save the puppy...this time...taking smaller steps and a slower speed...but once again...the algae defeated me...i was dancing on algae tryin to maintain my balance...but at the end...i slipped...and landed on my butt...it hurts bad...and my whole shirt and pants were covered with green algae...and pathetically...my clothes were white...my dad and my sis were giving me sound effects from afar when i fell silently...they scream as tho they felt my pain...haha...neway...as i continued walking...the puppy started running away...so...at the end...my mission was a failure...sob...so i had to climb out of the big drain...and in the process of climbing out...i got myself scratched by some boulder...it hurts...sob...so now...thrs a plaster on my knee...pity me...haha

yeah...tat's all...mission 911 was a failure...haha

the last few days of school...

yeah...tomorrow will be my last day in lower 6...next year will be a tough year...n life will not be so fun anymore...how i hope lower 6 was longer...hmmm....these few months in lower 6 had been fun...there will always be something to laugh about everyday...and the guys will alwiz have their lame ways to make u laugh...eventually...and surprisingly...i never had so much fun in school before...haha...pathetic me...

neway...last few days in school will usually be filled with games and leisure time...but sadly for us...in lower 6...we have classes till the last day of school...and not forgetting...the homework that comes along...while everybody else is playing UNO...we are sittin in class trying to absorb all the facts and equations taught...n thankfully...the facts actually get into the brain...

yea...the upcoming holiday won't be a holiday...will have to start bucking up on my studies...finish my assignments...go to school for duties and practices...and finish all my homework...and i'll have to catch bugs for my bio project...and preserve leaves...hmmm...not forgettin my tuitions...there goes my holidays...

neway...movies i wanna watch...

in the cinemas...
1. 007
2. chihuahua
3. madagascar
4. bolt!!

on HBO
1. TRANSFORMERS!!!
2. game plan
3. nanny diaries (i dunno whether it's right...but it's sumthin like tat)

i just hope i can watch some of the movies listed above...hmmm

k la...tat's all for now...

truths in life...

yeah...i got this from the odyssey 2008...n i find them interesting...

a sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let it go...

the best kind of friend is the kind that you can sit on a porch to swing with, never say a word and then walk away like it was the best conversation that you've ever had...

it's true that we don't know what we've got until we lost it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives...

it takes only a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone BUT it takes a lifetime to forget someone...

don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

always put yourself in someone else's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts them too.

love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone was smiling. Life your life so that when you die, you're the only one smiling while everyone around you is crying.

neway...i dunno why i've been feelin so stressed up lately...sigh...

oooh ya...guess wat was i spotted in my neighbourhood...i spotted a HORNBILL bird...haha...it was a hornbill...can you believe that we actually have hornbills flyin around my housing area...haha... my sister and i got kinda excited when we saw the bird...wanted to take a picture...but by the time i took my phone out...the bird flew away...saddening...

hmmm...we had interesting experiments this week...for bio...we did preservation of bugs...yup...big bugs and small bugs...let me roughly tell you the procedure of insect preservation...

for big insects...you have to first kill it with chloroform...then...we have to dissect the insect...yup...dissect an insect...hmm...we have to remove all the stuff in it's abdomen...and the stuff we removed ain't so pretty...there'll be this long thing that looks like an intestine...some other guey stuff...some eggs...some sac...n many other unidentified organs...we have to dig everything out to ensure the bug doesn't rot...yup...once the abdomen is empty...we soaked the bug in formalin...and then dry it a little...since the abdomen is empty...we replaced the contents in the abdomen with cotton...to give shape to that insect...yeah...then...we juz place it in the oven...and tada.....a preserved insect!!

for smaller insects...it's simple...just soak it in formalin and then place it in the oven...and you're done...yeah...tat's all bout insects preservation...

njttjo zpv...

sick...yet again...

sigh...i'm down with flu again...maybe i'm just too exhausted after the workshop on saturday...neway...talkin bout the workshop...it was ok...everything went on fine...but my leg hurt so badly cause i was in my black shoes the whole day...even my arm muscles hurt...cause i took this big bag of rubbish to the rubbish bin...it was heavy...realli heavy...so now my arms are like jelly...

neway...had the same nightmare again...sigh...i dunno why i seem to be dreaming the same scenario...but this time...it's a higher level...and the sad thing is i always wake up sobbing...i have to realli find the core to all my nightmares...somehow i have different nightmares...some nightmares only happen when i am having fever...some once a month...some when i am tensed up...there is this one nightmare that i dreamt since i was a kid...the same place...the same strangers...the same scenario...n this particular nightmare only comes when i am having fever...weird...

yeah...i'm having strands of white hair...gosh...i'm gettin older...or maybe i'm just getting wiser...haha...

neway...tat's all for now...sigh...kiddy will onli be back in 2 days...have to tahan 2 more days...