Is this me??

"This is me"

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I had this dream
Bright inside of me
I'm going to let it show
It's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's to far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Hmm...have been listening to this song...the lyrics are interesting...and it made me think...again...all this while...am i even me?? have i found who i am? or am i just a programmed robot? is thr even a voice in my head? whr am i supposed to be?? do i want to do wat i'm doin now? wat is my dream? n wat is my future?? do i realli wan to choose the medical field??

guess wat....i seriously have no answers to those questions...i seriously don't know...darn...life was suppose to be simple...it seemed to be simple...it was believed to be simple...ppl say that life was made simple..it is individuals who made it complicated...but to me...life is complicated...n humans made it more twisted and messed up...and i am like a 5 year old kid...trying to find my way through this complicated life and trying to stay alive...

hmmm...hv been reflecting a lot...what if i die tomorrow....have i realli enjoyed my life in the past 17 years? did i make the best of my life? i wonder...neway...i dunno what lies ahead of me...i realli wanna make the best of my life....but i dunno whether i can do it....i noe it all lies in my hands...but my hands juz dun seem to budge...i am still afraid...afraid of something...something that held me back all this while...

hmmmmm.....

i wan to be a kid again....life wudn't be so complicated...