an O&G day...

wat is O&G??? O represents obstetric while G represents gynaecology...so today was an O&G day...

today was the 3rd day of the program...my group was supposed to go to the O&G department n the surgical ward but eventually...we just went to the O&G department...it was located at the old hospital...had to walk...n with those black formal shoes...u hv no idea how much i dreaded walkin...

neway, reached the O&G buildin...yeah...wanted to see babies...n we did get to see a few new born babies with their mother comin out from the operation teather...so cute ler...went to other wards...saw mothers breastfeedin...then we also went n see how the labour room was...cudn't get to see the delivery process...coz we weren't allow...so, we cud onli see babies n mothers...

after lunch, we had to go listen to a talk from an O&G specialist...yeah...more babies n women stuff...she explained the diff between obstetrik n gynae...then she asked some questions...e.g.

"what is the ideal sex life?" ans : 3 times a week
"what is the ideal no of kids one shud hv?" ans : 5 kids
"how many years shud you wait to hv the next kid?" ans : 2 years

n a lot more la...neway...hv been climbin up n down the stairs so many times...altho there is the presence of lifts...thanks to hasy...after readin tat statement

"every flight of stairs you climb in the hospital, you will be able to burn calories equivalent to a plate of nasi lemak"

n with the flight of stairs i've been climbin these few days...i tink it will be equivalent to my entire week's meal...yeah rite...if onli i cud burn calories like tat...dahla my feet is cryin out in pain...i hv to climb my way up n down the stairs in every buildin...poor me

neway, tat's all for today...

ljeez, evo qmbz jo uif sbjo bi...opuuj gfmmb...qmt tnjmf l...nvbyyy

rather interestin day...

ok...today, the program started 8.30am...so i went at 8...first stop for the day....A&E...tat stands for accident n emergency...yeah...it was divided into three categories...critical, semi critical n non critical...saw one old man in the critical ward...the doctors was tryin to help him breathe...

later, we went to the plastic surgery unit...saw all the 'pretty' pictures...before n after surgery...quite gross but interesting...talked to the nurse bout whr the skin will be taken from to implant...n they said from ur leg...or back...

then, went to the 'pusat sumber'...it had information bout diebetics n organ donation...let me enlighten you on organ donation

donatable parts of a human body :
-heart
-kidneys
-liver
-eye balls
-skin
-bones
-valves

n me, MS BEH had officially pledge to donate my organs to the needy...hehehe...ain't i kind?? yeah...i hv a laminated card to proof it...

ok...next, was neurosugical unit...this place was fun...met this realli funny n cool doctor...talked a lot of crap with us...givin us a more detailed picture of wat a doctor's life would be...yeah...his conclusion was...

doctor's life = no life at all(social)

but eventually, thr was still some good points on becomin a doctor...e.g how a doc can act help a dyin man to live...most of the doctors said tat feelin of savin a life is priceless...yup...then another neurosurgeon came and talked...all of the neurosurgeons claims to be a little off...joked so much...n thr was this realli horny joke...gosh...it goes like this :

younger doc : hey, all this gonna-be-medical-students want to experience life as a doctor, so i planned maybe they can follow a medical officer around...

older doctor : you sure? after they see some thing gruesome...

younger doctor : haha...they will start shakin at their knees and their balls will drops off...

the innocent kids like me : *gasp* gosh....*giggles*

older doctor : they don't have balls la (oh ya, for ur information, my group were all girls)

the innocent kids like me : *gasp louder* oh my gosh...this is so wrong...*giggles louder*

younger doctor : they will have some other balls....(or sumthin like tat..cudn't catch the words)

so...conclusion?

neurosurgeons : humorous, funny n weird but still...respectable...yeah...find them realli cool...

after tat, was lunch, then a talk...from a paeditrician...was a good talk...not bad...also laughed a little...

oh ya, another group saw sumthin interestin...they got to go some room...n guess wat process they saw??? they saw the process of insertin a tube into someone's p*n*s...yeah... they said he was an old man who's urinary tract got blocked...hmmm...gross or interestin??? i hv no idea...

overall, today was a rather interestin day...oh ya, another nice song...

Wherever You Will Go by The Calling

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love
I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

ijf xjmm tubml zpv xifsfwfs zpv xjmm hp...ifif...nvbyyy

exhausted...

neway, not gonna type much...just gonna update my activities for the last few days...

22nd march - my birthday
had hightea with frens n family in excelsior, joked around, went home with frens n watched game plan...drank a can of shandy...went a little high...started blushin again...then played the marble game...then everybody went home....neway, thank you for spendin a day with me...realli nice of you ppl...esp kiddy, thank for alwiz becomin the entertainer...hahaha

23rd march - my sis birthday
woke up at 6 sumthin in the mornin...went to gopeng...took my colour blind test...got full marks for tat test...rather pathetic test...22 questions....yeah...after tat, went n listen to the 5 hours talk...it was seperated to 2 speakers...first speaker, talk facts but borin...2nd speaker, interestin n funny but talks a lot of crap...finished at 3 sumthin...reached home at 4 sumthin...din rest...watched tele...then got msg tat selection for jpa thing is out...went to check b4 leavin the house...n i found out i hv to go to the hospital at 9 am the next day...with trembling hands...i then went to parkson...ate at kenny's to celebrate my sis b'day...then started shoppin for clothes...shopped for formal wear...came home...onlined...then slept

24th march - 1st day of jpa exposure thing
woke up at 7 sumthin...wore a blouse with slacks n black shoes...looked like some office fella...went to the hospital...found whr other smart-ppl-who-wants-to be-a-doctor...gathered...met a few frens...then the talk started...had to introduce ourselves...our name, school, results, n y you wanna be a doctor...it took 2 hours...coz they were 75 ppl...later, heard some talk till lunch time...after lunch time, we started our walks around the hospital...went to all the therapy rooms...saw all the mchines n physiotherapy stuff...saw haemodialysis unit, some paliative ward, sterelizin room, n etc la...yeah...was supposed to finish at 4...but it ended at 5...went home... din rest...ate dinner...n now...i feel...exhausted...

ok, eventually, i typed a lot...neway, heard this song the other day in the radio...nice lyrics...

You'll Be In My Heart

It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always

Why can't they understand
The way we feel
They just can't trust
What they can't explain
I know we're different
But, deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other
To have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
And then I'll be with you
But you got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me, you'll be in my heart
I'll be there from this day on
Now and forever more

O, you'll be in my heart
(You'll be in my heart)
No matter what they say
(I'll be with you)
Be here in my heart
(I'll be there, always)
Always

I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there always

ljeez, zpv'mm bmxja cf jo kjf't ifbsu l...kjf mpwft zpv...

my pre-b'day celebration...

woke at 7 sumthin this morning...went to the stadium...played badminton...with kiddy, sei mun and kheinee...neway, among all of them...i was practically the worst...malunya...summore let kiddy bully...sedih...haha...neway, played for 2 hours...hand went tired...yeah, sumhow, i dunno how to hold the racket and articulate my wrist the rite way, so alwiz pain wan after playin...hahaha

neway, went to sei mun's house after tat...rather cosy...haha...watched a little of sweeny todd...then changed to stardust...after stardust, we went down for lunch - kfc...yeah...was rather full d...later, we watched wallace n gromit...the curse of the were rabbit...cute bunnies

then, their evil plan was revealed...sei mun brought me a piece of cake tat she bought from secret recipe...some chocolate cake...yeah...yummy...shared it with them...it was a rather large piece ler...then little kiddy took her stuff out...my pressie...hehe...it was a new teddy...so fluffy...i love it...

yeah, i juz wanna say thank you to sei mun for the cake...n thank you kiddy for the pressie...it was realli nice of them...simple...yet meaningful...realli appreciate it...my best peeps eh? hehe

kiddy, you dun realli hv to buy me a new teddy, the old one is juz fine...haha...neway, thanks a million...havin a fren n sister like you to lean on n cry on whenever i'm down is a priceless present...thanks ya

to sei mun n kiddy, luv ya ppl loads...hehe

I'LL BE THERE - WESTLIFE

You and I must make a pact
We must bring salvation back
Where there is love
I'll be there (I'll be there)


I'll reach out my hand to you
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name
And I'll be there (I'll be there)


Woah woah yeah


I'll be there to comfort you
I'll build my world and dreams around you
So glad that I found you
I'll be there with love that's strong
I'll be your strengthI'll keep holding on and on and on
Oh yes I will


Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me
I'll be there


I'll be there to protect you
With an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name
And I'll be there


I'll be there to comfort you
I'll build my world and dreams around you
So glad that I found you
I'll be there with love that's strong

I'll be your strength
I'll keep holding on and on
Oh yeah


If you should ever find someone new
I know he'd better be good to you
Cos if he doesn't
Then I'll be there


Don't you know baby yeah,
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I'll be there (I'll be there)
Just call my name
And I'll be there


Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah


I'll be there baby
I'll be there
You know I'll be there (oh yeah)
Just call my name and I'll be there (Oh yeah, oh baby)
I'll be there (I'll be there)
I'll be there (I'll be there)
Just call my name
And I'll be there


i've alwiz loved this song...haha

ljeez, j'mm bmxja cf uifsf gps zpv l...uibolt...kjf mpwft zpv...

thanks ppl...

another day...

yup, i went n see the choir competition...n once again, our school was defeated...our choir team could actually do a lot better...but i tink they freaked out...their notes were out in the first song...so obvious...n they were more obvious flaws...i expected tat results d tho...once i heard the choir at the competition...neway, cannot blame our school girls...other school hv trainers...our school hv none...n it was a very tough competition...n wat ticked us more was the the winner's attitude...after receiving their prize....the started congratulatin the other schools by shoutin out "congratulations, ...."...then they shouted "thank you, ...." gosh...it was undescribable...they were so....hmm...realli dunno wat to say...

neway, hv been applyin all the stuff...yeah...scholarships n stuff...been typin all the crap..or shall i say my simple co-curriculum vitae...then my mum hv been shootin me the question...askin me whether do i wan to take a-levels...if i do, i hv to pack my bag n leave the next day...then i met up with some seniors...asked them bout f6...they said it is manageable...then i asked bout the current results of stpm...n it isn't very good...my mum will then ask me another question...whether i wan to shift to sam tet to do my f6....sigh...this is frustratin

neway, felt realli bad...was thinkin...wat you said was rite...i hardly did nethin for you...maybe i'm not realli a good person after all...i wanted to stay...but i had told the others i'm goin...but eventually, to tink about it...i shud hv prioritize you...you were gonna run 200m...i shud have been thr to support you...like how you hv been thr to support me...so...juz wanna say sorry...

yup, tat's all for today...

the penang trip...

yeah...went to penang on sunday...tat is yesterday...it was a one day trip tho...went with my cousins...the little ones...sob...i was practically the eldest kid thr...correction...i AM the eldest kid thr...feelin so old...neway, when we reached the beach, we laid down our mat...my cousin n my younger sister ran to the san n started playing...ppl like me...a little paiseh...dun wanna look so childish playing sand...and din wan to get my hands dirty...so, i took a can of mister potato and started walkin around the beach...n observing wat the kids are doin...n not to my surprise, they were diggin...they were act diggin a fort to collect water...

so, due to boredom...i started diggin...but...not with my hand...hehehe...pro ppl like me uses their feet to dig...so, i was holding the mister potato in one hand while the other takes a piece to munch on...and my large feet were diggin like dogs....yeah...and...with my skills...i built a fort around a square area in a very short time with my sister's help...it's quite nice tho...hehe...

after tat, due to more boredom...i juz din care bout the sand...i juz went and get my hands dirty...i started takin little cups and toys my cousins brought...one by one...i was buildin my city of sand...haha...then, the hardest task came...i had to build the main buildin...so, i grabbed a large square container n started stuffin and compressin sand in...then, i turned it over...banged the base...n removed the container...n to my disappointment, i tumbled down...so i did another time...n with my super hands, i managed to build a square building...

after tat, i challenged myself n my sister to see how many layers can we built on tat square building...so we tried the first layer...we succeeded to place one small cylinder...n then i tried to place another few more on tat square area...i onli succeeded to place three cylinders of sand...neway, sand time was over....so, we went and eat summore...ate all the junks...so gonna get fat...

then later, my cousin wanted to ride tat banana boat thingy...when i heard the word banana, it reminded me of tat conversation in johnny's....gosh...so gross...n horny...haha...went for tat ride...then it was lunch time...we packed up, n drove to gurney plaza...

thr, we had japanese food...after lunch, it was shoppin time...the kids followed the men to bookshops n toy store...while the ladies, tat means my mum n aunt includin me, went shoppin for clothes...i was juz thr to help choose the clothes...i have good taste...yeah, then my aunty n mum made me try on skirts n formal blouses...looked rather old...but eventually, bought one blouse...in case of interviews...

after shoppin, it was eatin time again...walked to gurney drive...the sun was scorchin hot..could realli feel the heat...neway, i ate...n ate...n ate...n i drank 3 cups of 'lo hon go' or also called as 'mata kucing'...imagine how hot the weather was...

when finished eatin , it was journey home d...aunt suggested tat we take a ferry...so we did...thank God i didn't vomit my meal out...yeah...slept like a pig the entire journey home...
at last, home sweet home...

ljeez, nf njttjo zpv cbemz mfs...tpc tpc...ofxbz, ublf dbsf l...kjf mpwft zpv...evo cf ipsoz bi...ifif

the 2nd outing...

yeah...went out for another outing today...this time...in a bigger group...not realli big tho...juz 4 person...sei mun, hsin lin, kiddy n me...yeah...brought their toys along...a pink hippo for sei mun...n a lion for hsin...din realize tat the lion was flawed till today...when joe ee showed it to me...feelin so bad for buyin a spoilt product...neway...i din forget bout kiddy's share...yeah...bought her a tatty teddy...as a reward for her good results...yeah...i hope all of them like their gifts...

today's outing started with a movie...watched spiderwick chronicles...kiddy came late...so had to wait outside for her...hsin used tat opportunity n made me buy sweet corn for her...neway, kiddy came...n we went in...so pai seh...had to say "sorry" n "excuse me" all the way to the seat...the show began n we watched...n then somethin funny happened...hsin was so indulged in her sweet corn...she din realli pay attention to the screen...so when somethin exciting n unexpected happen...she practically said oh-oh so loud...hahaha....real funny la...we laughed n giggled after tat...

some pictures n characters of the show...

the main thing...

the main character-jared

jared, simon n their sister...

the book tat villians were after

some ugly villian

a hobglobin tat eats birds

movie ended...n it was lunch time..or shall we call it tea time...ate at johnny's...yup...steamboat...i realized i have many new experiences with frens this year...had lou sang with them durin cny...n now steamboat...yup...neway, i did the courtesy of orderin...yeah...food came...so we starter dumpin everything in...n then wait for it to boil...n somehow...when the temperature increases...i'll start to blush...haihz...my weakness...neway...yeah...we ate n ate...had fried rice too...then to end everything...we ate banana split...see kiddy...i said it correctly...yeah...durin this meal...all of them went realli high...n horny...i was practically the onli sane one there...hahaha...practically 1/2 their conversation was censored stuff...n the poor naif mind like mine was polluted today...

we finished our meal...n went for a walk...then sei mun had to leave d...we continued walkin till it was 5...n then it was left with kiddy n me...waited for my dad...kiddy bumped into her swimmin frens...n i slipped away...due to the awkwardness...n felt rather left out...hahaha...neway...dad came...n tat's the end of our outing

today's outing was rather fun la...

uibolt efbs...gps tqfoejoh bopuifs ebz xjui nf...kjf mpwft zpv...

the outing...

went to jusco today...with wingy...onli 2 of us ni...coz others all cannot come...neway...went n watch the movie...'horton hears a who'...great movie...rather funny...n cute...it's about an elephant and a spec of dust...



we crapped a lot today tho...hehe...we chatted in the cinema...n on the way out from the cinema...neway, after movie, we went for lunch at sushi king...n miss wingy can actually eat a lot...my poor pocket...haha...no offence, ms wingy...jokin ni la...yeah...felt so full...n bloated...

after that, we took a walk or can we say a stroll...around jusco...went n buy present for ppl...played with a few soft toys...then left tat department...walked summore...then went n buy another present...for another person...we practically walked around the gift area the entire time

later, we went to the toys department...haha...was lookin at all the little toys...then we talked summore...walked summore...n then it was time for me to go home...it was fun to have wingy's company the entire day...so, wanna say thank you again...for the great day...i'm feelin a lot betta compared to yesterday...you definately cheered me up...

ljeez, j ibe b hsfbu ebz xjui zpv upebz...mpwf zpv

unexplained emotions...

today was the day...got my results...dunno to say i'm happy or disappointed...i'm happy because i got all a's but disappointed because i missed straight a1s by 1 a2...n wat is tat a2 for?? it's for moral...i cud accept it if it was sejarah...but moral?!? the subject tat i scored the entire 2 years...the subject tat i had my hopes on...i cud not accept that i missed my straight a1s by an a2 for moral...haihz...my disappointment is unexplainable...as i type this...tears are wellin up in my eys...haihz...feel like cryin my heart out another time...but whenever i cry...my mum will shoot this legendary phrase, "you are the head prefect, dun make urself look so weak...it'll be a shame if you cry" i wud hv to hold my tears back...i cried in school...alone...in the pr...act sei mun was thr...but we were both juz disappointed...sometimes i dun und...y can't i cry? i'm still human...neway, i cried my heart out in the pr...then had to hide thr till my eyes looked less obvious that i cried...wingy msged me n called me tho...n i wanna thank her for her concern...

neway, i went to see some teachers...they all said my results were good...they all congratulated me...i had to smile for them...but deep down...i was cryin...i was so hurt n disappointed...i'm juz so close...so close to gettin somethin all my family members expected me to get...i'm now tearing again...

neway, went to my granma's house...grandpa asked for results...i said straight a's...then he asked all a1s?...n i had to answer...no...1 a2...you noe how bad it hurts me...i had to say i missed it by 1 a2

later, was home...parents start askin...who got straight a's?...then they will say...wah, they so good ah...how i hoped i cud be one of them...to be praised like that...then my parents looked thru the argosy...checked last year's straight a1's scorers...then they asked..."this fella get straight a1s meh? wah...not bad..."

then it hit me again...i could be on tat list...if i hadn't missed 1 a2...it seriously breaks my heart...i noe some other ppl's result is worse...they got all a1s n 1 b3...but...i dun wanna compare with them...i wanna compare with myself...my expectations...

i noe next year, when my cousin's results come out...my mum will start comparin...then my grandparents will be saying tat my cousins results are way better than mine...i just noe it will happen...it's been like that my entire life...i tot i cud prove to them tat i'm still good...after all the years i deteriorated a little...but sadly...my hopes are crushed...seriously...i dunno wat else to say...it realli hurts...it realli hurts a lot...

j opf zpv dbmmfe nf up cf ibqqz...cvu j evo ujol j dbo...tpssz o uibol zpv gps kva tubzjo cz nz tjef

freakin out...

oh gosh...i dunno how to explain my feelings now...haihz...my heart is actually beating at a very fast rate...havin butterflies in my stomach...n my gastric is gettin worse...i'm seriously freakin out...all the thoughts...mostly negative...are flooding my mind...juz been thinkin about all the remarks given...my grandmother practically gave the remark that increased my guilt n tension...my mum told her tat results will be out on the 12th and all she said was..."aiya, dun nid to worry, ah ying's results sure very 'leng' wan"...haihz... i felt so flattered and scared at the same time...the first thing tat came to my mind was...wat if i din get the results everyone expected...wat am i to do?? whr am i to hide my face then?? oh gosh...the dilemma is haunting me all over again...

everybody keep saying tat my results will be fine...my confidence will build up a little...but then crushed by all my thoughts...i juz hv so many wat if's in my brain at the moment...i juz don't wan to disappoint anyone...i dare not imagine the look on my parents face if i got bad results...i dunno y...but somehow i grew up alwiz fearin that i will disappoint my parents...maybe it's because of my past...how i was brought up...i remembered everything...how my mum will keep bringin up the topic if i din reach their expectations...then she'll keep comparing...n practically everything i did in my school life was to achieve the head prefect post...i can imagine if i din get it...i'll be facing another nightmare...haihz...parents...they are all the same...

haihz...if i was to post all my current thoughts here...i think it'll take the whole night...neway...wonderin if i cud sleep tonight...dun even know whether my stomach can survive the night...all my thoughts for the results are just making my brain hurt...

neway, gonna keep my fingers crossed n hope for the best...haihz...

ljeez, iw gvo upnpsspx...evo xpssz...ephhz xjmm ublf pwfs nz qmbdf jg j'n hpof...ublf hppe dbsf pg zpvstfmg l...evo cf opuuj...o qspnjtf kjf up tnjmf...kva xboob tbz j mpwf zpv...o uibol zpv gps fwfszuijoh zpv'wf epof...o bmtp tpssz...tpssz gps bmm uif ujnft j nbef zpv dsz...tpssz gps bmm uijoht uibu ivsu zpv...tpssz gps cfjoh tvdi b xfblmjoh...tpssz gps opu cfjoh b hppe kjf...tpssz gps nboz uijoht uibu j'wf epof uibu xve iw nbef zpv tbe...j'n kvtu tpssz

gastric...

yeah...my gastric is gettin worse lately...it started yesterday...woke up at 6 am...the pain was rather unbearable...turn around on the bed...then went to toilet...somehow had a little diarrhea...went down n drank milk...ate a pill...then went back up...then had to go toilet again...after tat...i tot the pill wud hv work d...but sadly...no...so...cudn't sleep...went down alone...n switched on the tele...watched some show called 'coach carter' while eatin my strawberry love letters...gulped down another gastric pill...neway, it was a very inspirin show...was cryin alone downstairs...haha....watched tat show till 8am...then, everybody was awake d...parents n sis went out for breakfast while i stayed home alone...again...sob...neway...things seem to get betta after tat...the pain was gone...dad called us to get ready to balik kampung...so, changed my clothes n went...

neway, back in my kampung...ate lunch...msged wingy...read my new book...not very good tho...rather boring...then tummy dun feel so well...mum made me ate biscuits and gulped down 2 pills...then...stomach started 2 churn...din wan to risk vomitin in front of my relatives...so, i walked to the sink...once i reached the sink...the process began...first, it was water...then the biscuits i juz ate...

after tat, mum made me eat another biscuit n gulped down another pill...then, i felt my everything in my stomach rising....once again...walked to the sink...this time, it was more...i practically saw everything i ate comin out...according to the meals i took...but backward...first vomit, water again...followed by biscuits...then my entire bowl of rice...felt so dead after tat...went n lie on the chair...din wan to sleep...many relatives around...neway, watched a little tele...then went for dinner...luckily for me, nth came out through my digestive tract backwards after tat...hahaha

then today came...brought my sis for theory exam in school...went n see guides camp...then went and see choir...their singin is good d...tho suprano's are rather weak...onli 9 ppl this year...saddenin...then went n eat lunch twice...burp...once in school...was forced to...then later in grandma's house...was rather full...

2.30 came...had to go for tuition...then went home...wanted to nap...coz raining heavily...went to bed...din sleep...results dilemma started again...prayed...msged...waited for a reply...when startin to fall asleep, reply came...haha...so, din sleep...later, ate dinner...then did my tuition homework...so guai eh...cud do all the questions...haha...bangga...then, came n online...yup, tat's all for today...

countdown for results : 2 more days, my stomach is having butterflies again...haihz...

2 npsf ebzt ljeez...ublf hppe dbsf xifo kjf jt opu bspvoe l...iw gvo mjlf zpv bsf ibwjoh opx...o zpv xvo sfbmjaf nz bctfodf jo zpvs mjgf...zpv xjmm hfu vtfe up fbu tppofs ps mbufs...bqqsfdjbuf uif ujnft zpv iw xjui zpvs gsjfoet...j opf zpv xjmm...ivh ephhz l...ephhz xhmm kbhb ljeez xifo kjf jt hpof...j mpwf zpv

xf njhiu cf gbs bqbsu, cvu sfnfncfs uibu j'n bmxbzt uifsf cz zpvs tjef...

election...

today is the 12th general election of malaysia...n i was curious to see how things work during election...so, dad brought the whole family for a little trip around town...first, we passed by some school...saw many cars...many ppl...n definately many banners...n then we saw cars with flags of the political parties...thr was this mercedes car with some political party's flag...i noe wat flag those are but dunno whether shud i say not...later kena tahan...as if la...but nvm...i shall take precaution...neway, it was giving free rides to the voters..imagine...someone cud hv a free lift in a mercedes if they voted for those parties...

hmmm...to think about it...those parties who realli wan ppl to vote for them shud have limos or helicopters...then it will definately be a pretty sight...hehe...imagine seeing helicopters landing in a middle of some field...droppin off a group of supporters...tat'll be interesting...it'll be like some movies...with troops of soldiers or army forces comin down the helicopter holdin large guns n rifles...but instead of hunky soldiers...we might be seeing some aunty n senior citizen comin down or shall we said being carried down the helicopter with their umbrella n walkin sticks...a nice picture to imagine...hmm...yea...i will definately vote for tat particular party tat provides such service next time...hehehe

neway...today was fine...din do much tho...juz laid around...ate lunch...watch tele...lay around again...then went for dinner followed by shoppin...bought myself another book...forgotten the title...n no, miss wingy...it is not a horny book...after shoppin...i came back...watched the tele...checked on the general election results...n these are few results tat caught my attention...

datuk sami vellu(sg siput) - kalah

datuk sharizat(not sure whr) - kalah

datuk koh(penang) - kalah

all these are from the news...so if nething is wrong, blame the news...

neway, got rumours from penang tat things are not goin so well...dunno la...luckily our area is alrite...all peace n quiet

ok, enuf about the election...we will all noe tomolo...juz have to flip thru the newspaper n we'll see everything...

neway, somethin seems to be realli wrong with my kidneys...have been goin to the toilet so often...tho i hardly take in any fluid...wonder wat's wrong...dun care la...still living...so i tink it shud be fine...

oh ya...today is the 8th day of the month...so, juz wanna say thank you to someone who have alwiz been by my side through thick and thin...it means a lot having someone like you to lean on when i'm down n depressed...so..thank you for everything...you've been a great companion all these while...

k la, tat's all for today...

uibol zpv gps bmxbzt cfjoh uifsf gps nf...mpwf v

great day...

today started off fine...sis bugged me...therefore had to wake up so early...stayed at home with her...then planned up a weird plan...that is to ajak tat notti fella to my house...since little wingy din had school...tot maybe cud meet up wih her n chat a few stuff...n she agreed...haha...the advantage of havin a someone living so near you...can juz ajak her over anytime...hehe

so, she came...n guess wat...we prepared breakfast...we had to cook ler...we had eggs, hotdogs n nuggets...haha...but practically, i did all of the cookin n she did all of the commentin...evil her...first, we fried the eggs...my speciality...hehe...called tat notti fella to scoop the egg in the pan to the plate but she was practically juz foldin it...tsk tsk tsk...so i had to do it at the end...

then, we fried the hotdogs...thr was a few only tho...out of stock...haha...neway, second attempt to make her cook...i made her check the hotdogs so tat it is not burnt...tat, she did ok la...not bad...

later, we fried our nuggets...i had trouble with nuggets tho...had farm's best nuggets...neway...i place it in the pan...n was happily fryin...then i wanted to check whether it is cooked not...so i poked it with a fork...n guess wat came out...some white fluid...tat dumb fluid caused the the oil to 'tan' around...can't realli find the word...shall i say spurtin? dunno la...it's the reaction tat happens when the water touches hot oil...neway, i freaked out a little tho...but had to act cool...since thr is a guest around...haha...then i had my 3rd attempt to make her cook...so i called her to flip the nuggets...n guess wat? she succeeded...*applause*...we took quite a long time to cook the nuggets tho...after quite some time, i scooped the nuggets out...i act doubted whether the nuggets was cooked not...haha...but i think it was cooked...

so...bon apetite...my meal was served on the table...had two ppl to try them...my sis n my little wingy...my younger sis ate it quietly but tat wingy...sob...these were the remarks she gave :

"i wonder whether the egg can eat anot la"

"look at the hotdog, the skin so weird looking"

"hmmm...i wonder whether the nugget is cooked"

gosh...insulted...but nvm...at least noone got any food poisoning today...hahaha...so, overall

my cooking : masih boleh tahan la...

perasannya saya...haha

after breakfast, left my sis to study her theory exam...chat with wingy...n guess wat...realized i might have knew her since standard 3, means she is onli a little standard one kiddo...if i cud remember knowing her, means i wud hv actually knew her since 9 years ago...haha...we then flicked thru some magazines...chat summore...then, she had to leave d...sobs...

yeah, had a rather fun morning today...

uibolt ljeez, gps tqfoejoh ujnf xjui nf upebz...ofxbz, tnjmf npsf l...ju't op hppe up gspxo...ublf hppe dbsf pg zpvstfmg bi...kjf tvn upoh e mfs...njttjo zpv e...kjf mpwft zpv...

tnjmf l

the talk...

today was quite frustrating...thanks to my cousins...but someone cheered me up later in the afternoon...so...thank you...

neway, had the same old talk during dinner...parents asked again..."so, are you sure you wanna take form 6?" n i was like, "anything la, eventually it is still education, i will still have to study"

i've been thinkin for some time d...n i tink i will be takin f6 if i dun succeed to get any scholarships...by takin f6, i cud actually save a big lump sum of money...let me lay out my case...

i had 2 choices...hmm...actually 3...neway,

1st choice - a-levels - in kl
pros - a shorter time(starts in march, ends in mid year-2009, i tink), college life, a little more independance n freedom
cons - hv to pay for accomodation, food, transport, n can't learn drivin
$$ - rather exp

2nd choice - form 6 - in a normal school
pros - closer to home, accomodation n food provided, get driving license n a car, hehe, n closer to ppl i wil miss dearly
cons - a longer period of time (starts in mid year 08, ends in 2009), ppl say it is a lot harder, so, gonna get more white hair...haha
$$ - the cheapest choice

3rd choice - overseas
pros - able to start foundation straightaway, save more money than goin to imu, get to see the outside world
cons - too far away, mum dun realli wan me to be too far, parents n family say i'm a weakling, cannot survive outside...sob
$$ - cheaper than imu, but plane ticket will seriously burn a large hole in the pocket

decision : undecided

i shall juz wait till my results are out...till then, i shall try to enjoy the few more days left before results comes out...and cross my fingers so that things goes well...

ljeez, tujmm hpu 6 npsf ebzt mfs...kva xboob tbz kjf mpwft zpv...uibol zpt gps fwfszuijoh...o tpssz gps cfjoh tvdi b kfsl...ofxbz, nf wfsz hvbj mfs...ifif...zpv bmtp nva hvbj bi...xifo kjf opu bspvoe ofyu ujnf...j mpwf zpv

results...

haihz...shud i be excited or freaked out...results will be out in a week time...on the 12th of march...half of me wans it to be out as soon as possible but the other half just wans it to never be announced...i'm juz scared...

what am i scared of?? i'm juz worried la...worried that my results will come out bad or not as i expected...i'm worried tat i'll disappoint not only myself but everybody else who is hoping for me to get a good result...whenever someone says, "aiya, she is a smart girl la, sure get straight a's" or "her results will definately be good, no doubt"...i just feel...i juz feel like they are all putting their hopes on me and if i dun get the results tat they expected...i am a great disappointment and shame to the family...i have thoughts like...'did i study enough?', 'will my results be something that i'll be proud of?', 'will everything juz fall into place?', 'will i be able to make my family proud?'

haihz...all these thoughts are wandering in my mind...and the thing is...my miserable nightmare is back in my mind...i had a nightmare of myself gettin all b's...aargh...wat if it realli happened? wat if i did some stupid blunders? wat if i din check properly? wat if my writing actually cause the examiner to mark me with lower marks? there are so many wat ifs...and the greatest wat if is...wat if i flunked my papers by the means of gettin results worse than i expected? wat am i gonna do???? maybe i'll juz lose my mind n do something stupid...all these thoughts are juz killin me...

neway, enough with my results dilemma...i shall now talk bout my day today...

i woke up at 7 and went to grandma's. n unfortunately for 2 rats today, they had to be executed...i watch the process...whr two rats in a cage was drowned in a bucket of water...they were rather cute tho, runnin around in the cage...but then it was rather pitiful to see them swimming around to find a way up to the surface when they were submerged in water...neway... after 10 minutes, they were gonners...both sank to the bottom...enuf with the killin...neway, after tat, i had to watch the lame cartoon with my cousin...this cartoon is called 'in the night garden'...starts at 9.30am...my cousin calls it 'the baby show'..it's quite lame in a way but also cute...i can practically memorize every song sang by each character...yup,every character has their own song...will hv a post on this cartoon when i'm, free...neway, after tat, things were normal...ate lunch, went home, slept, chat with the notti horny sick fella...and i solved another few tuition questions...hehe...bangga...n now, i'm blogging...yup...tat's my day for today...

uibolt ljeez gps tubzjoh cz nz tjef bmm uiftf xijmf..

horny vs wingy

act, this post might sound a little lame...coz it is lame...but neway, shall post it to clear my name...ok now...

due to the coincidence tat i am born in the year of the goat and has a horoscope of a sheep...i hv been given the nickname 'HORNY'...due to the presence of horns in both the animals i am related in...n tho i am given the name horny...i proudly can say n declare tat i am NOT horny...(not like wat ms kim claims me to be)

because i am nicknamed horny...i decided to nick name her after the year she is born in...and guess which year she is born in....hehehehehe...*rubs hands together*

presenting...the year of the chicken...muahahaha...so n therefore, i shall n hv already named her WINGY...n tho she is named wingy...the irony is tat she is the horny wan...or shall we say the horniest among us both...and to prove tat, i shall first show you ppl the obvious symbol tat can prove wingy is hornier than HORNY...

as you can see in the pictures provided above, goats n sheeps each hv onli 2 horns on their head...but if you look at the the chicken, there are more sharp lookin things tat looks like horns...you see tat red thingy on it's head?? ahah..those are horns in disguise...thrfore, ahem ahem...*knocks on the table*...the jury, tat is mua had declare tat wingy is definately the horniest wan...case closed...hehehe...WINGY is finally defeated by HORNY!! muahahaha

hmmmm...

ahah...let's see how's it like to be a blogger...since i've got loads of my wonderful time to spare...neway, 1st post shall be realli short...hv to go beautify my 'blog'...i seriously can't believe i will start bloggin...hmm...neway, i shall see how long this blog last...cya